Life.Whatever.

Everything seems so wrong right now.
Everything seems so hard to do right now.

It's so hard to fall asleep.
It's so hard to not to think.
Even giving up is harder.

I really don't know.

If you've notice.
If you can even notice it.

All the pressure.
All the tension.

Major breakdown?
What's more?

I don't know.
Really no idea.

What to do?
Anny clue?

If there's a U-Turn in life.
We can go back to a lot of things.
But will it remain the same?
Will there be any changes?

Now I'm starting to think.
To think that my decision to take the U-Turn.
It might be a wrong decision after all.

The Scar.
I think it's getting bigger and bigger.
The gap.
I don't know what you're thinking anymore.

Please give me a clue.
Whether I'm taking the road not taken.
Or I'm doing the right thing to do.

For now.
I'll just bear with it.

What done is done.
No way you can undo it.
A scar is left.
No way it's going away.

I'll do what you hope me to do.
I will just do it.
For you.
Forgive and forget.

But what done is done.
The gap, will still be there.
How to fix it, it'll be up to you.
Can you even fix it?
It's up to you to answer it.

How can you?
How can you do that?
How can you make the decision without informing me?

You gave me no chance.
You gave me no time for preparation.
What do you expect?

I wasn't even ready.
You really shouldn't do that.
For now, you'll bear the consequences.

Everytime I opens up my heart.
I ended up getting hurt.

I thought.
I really did.
I really thought I've got it settled.
Seems like I'm wrong.

Decisions were made.
I hoped there won't be changes.
Seems, like this time, I'm wrong after all.

I've tried.
I tried very hard.
Real hard to rip it off from my brain.
Try really hard to forget about everything.

Once again.
I failed.
Am I a loser?
No.
I don't think so.

I'm trying real hard to follow whatever my heart tells me.
It tells me too many things.
I don't know.
Really.

Should I really be ignorant this time?
Is giving up a good decision?
What will happen?
I'm just not confident enough.
You can try.
If you think you're capable of.
Build up my confidence.
Then I'll know what to do.

I'm still me.
Nothing's gonna change me.
Nothing.

Cold water can cool me down.
Cold water can't wake me up.
Have to wake up.
I'm not going to change myself.
Not because of anyone or anything.

I'm getting from bad to worse to worst.
The decision I made.
I might be selfish this time.
I don't care.
I can't be losing myself anymore.

I won't be telling you this.
I'm sorry.
Sorry for hurting you.
Hurting you at the same time.
Means hurting me even more.

There is no future.
So, don't even bother.
I admit I'm not brave enough.
I don't like this feeling.
I hate it.
Not being in control.
I'm sorry.
I really am.
I'm just not brave enough this time.

I've had enough.
I don't want to handle it anymore.
I can't take it anymore.
I'm done.

At the end of the day.
I'm still me.
The real me.
Nothing has changed.

I've tried.
The more I try.
The more I don't understand.
It hurts.
It hurts badly.
It hurts me to see you building a shield around yourself.
It hurts me to see you acting this way.
It hurts me to see you not taking care of yourself.
It hurts me to see you thinking too much.
It hurts me.
Really.
This time it hurts.
It hurts badly.
You are capable of doing this.
Unexplainable.

我不忍心。
我不忍心把它表现出来。
我很怕。
我怕万一我把它表现出来。
你所做的一切。
会把我伤的更重。
我可以。
我可以把一切丢下。
完全不理。
可是，因为是你。
我办不到。

I care.
I care about you.
All I've been doing and I'll be doing.
All are for you.
But.
You took it wrongly.
I understand.
Really.
I understand why you'd think it that way.
But.
Because I care.
I'll try.
I'll try all my best.
I'll try all my best to make  a change.
It doesn't matter.

不管多久。
不管付出的代价多大。
我会坚持。
我会继续。
直到我成功。
因为。
我直到有一天。
我会成功。
放弃，不在我字典内。
总会有一天。。。