Life.Whatever.

All the pressure.
All the tension.

Major breakdown?
What's more?

I don't know.
Really no idea.

What to do?
Anny clue?

If there's a U-Turn in life.
We can go back to a lot of things.
But will it remain the same?
Will there be any changes?

Now I'm starting to think.
To think that my decision to take the U-Turn.
It might be a wrong decision after all.

The Scar.
I think it's getting bigger and bigger.
The gap.
I don't know what you're thinking anymore.

Please give me a clue.
Whether I'm taking the road not taken.
Or I'm doing the right thing to do.

For now.
I'll just bear with it.

What done is done.
No way you can undo it.
A scar is left.
No way it's going away.

I'll do what you hope me to do.
I will just do it.
For you.
Forgive and forget.

But what done is done.
The gap, will still be there.
How to fix it, it'll be up to you.
Can you even fix it?
It's up to you to answer it.

How can you?
How can you do that?
How can you make the decision without informing me?

You gave me no chance.
You gave me no time for preparation.
What do you expect?

I wasn't even ready.
You really shouldn't do that.
For now, you'll bear the consequences.

I wish, I wish.
I really wish.
I wish that my wishes will come true.

I wish that you'll be safe.
I wish that you'll be healthy.
I wish that you'll be happy.

My wishes are simple.
It applies to everyone.

Hope that my wishes come true.

What I've been feeling for the night.
The night I've hurt somebody.
Somebody important to me.
I didn't mean it.
But, still it hurts.

I'm sorry.
Really really sorry.
Thank You.
Really really thank you.

Thank you for forgiving me.
Thank you for forgetting it.
Thank you for consoling me when I can't get over it.
Thank you.
Thank you for everything.

You must know.
You are wonderful.
It's not up to us to decide whether we deserve each other or not.
It's fate.
Keep the faith.
Like what you always say.
People touches your life, for a reason.
I'm just serving my purpose by being a very very good friend of yours.
Same thing goes to you.
You're like an angel sent to me.

Friendship is precious.
I'll remember it forever.

I'm feel so relief.
After what I've been carrying for the past night.
Thank you.

I don't know what to do to make it up.
I'm not really good at expressing myself.
I can only say.

I'm sorry.
Thank You.

Everytime I opens up my heart.
I ended up getting hurt.

I admit.
I do things without caring how others feel.
I'm sorry what I did just now.
I totally ignored how you feel.
I'm just selfish.
I'm really really sorry.
I didn't know that it actually hurts you that bad.
Thanks for telling it to me.
I'm really happy that I'm hearing it from you.
From someone I'm close to.
Someone that cares about me.

I promise.
I swear.
I promise and swear that I'll be doing this for one last time.
The very last time.
No more next time.
I promise.

I thought.
I really did.
I really thought I've got it settled.
Seems like I'm wrong.

Decisions were made.
I hoped there won't be changes.
Seems, like this time, I'm wrong after all.

I've tried.
I tried very hard.
Real hard to rip it off from my brain.
Try really hard to forget about everything.

Once again.
I failed.
Am I a loser?
No.
I don't think so.

I'm trying real hard to follow whatever my heart tells me.
It tells me too many things.
I don't know.
Really.

Should I really be ignorant this time?
Is giving up a good decision?
What will happen?
I'm just not confident enough.
You can try.
If you think you're capable of.
Build up my confidence.
Then I'll know what to do.

I'm still me.
Nothing's gonna change me.
Nothing.

Cold water can cool me down.
Cold water can't wake me up.
Have to wake up.
I'm not going to change myself.
Not because of anyone or anything.

I'm getting from bad to worse to worst.
The decision I made.
I might be selfish this time.
I don't care.
I can't be losing myself anymore.

I won't be telling you this.
I'm sorry.
Sorry for hurting you.
Hurting you at the same time.
Means hurting me even more.

There is no future.
So, don't even bother.
I admit I'm not brave enough.
I don't like this feeling.
I hate it.
Not being in control.
I'm sorry.
I really am.
I'm just not brave enough this time.

I've had enough.
I don't want to handle it anymore.
I can't take it anymore.
I'm done.

At the end of the day.
I'm still me.
The real me.
Nothing has changed.

Things have been bothering me.
A lot of things are running in my brain at the same time.
I'm getting from tired to exhausted and later fatigued.
I don't know.
I really don't know.
How long can I bear with this?
How long more can I hang in there?
How long can I hold on to it?

I'm feeling a major break down will be coming soon.
I really shouldn't let it happen.
I shall be strong.
I shall show no mercy.
I shall show no sign of weakness.

When I start to let things go.
You start to do things the opposite way.
I start building one invisible shield then.

I don't want to get hurt anymore.
I don't want.
I seriously don't want.
I really don't want.
I do it to protect myself.

Say whatever you like to say.
Just say.
I won't even be bothering.
It sucks to be handling this kind of problem.
Hate to be stranded in this kind of situation.
Hate it so darn much that I can do nothing.

I don't know.
I really don't know.
Stop forcing.
Your're getting on my nerve.
You're testing my patience.
You're going no where.

I'm giving up.
I can't stand it anymore.
I've had enough.

开心。
我真的很开心。
打从心里，真诚的，开心。

你做到了。
你成功了。
你终于踏出一步。
踏出一大步。
你改变了你的思考模式。
把自己从包袱里，解放出来。
释放自己。
放下你对世界堵上的一座透明的城墙。
你释怀了。

I've tried.
The more I try.
The more I don't understand.
It hurts.
It hurts badly.
It hurts me to see you building a shield around yourself.
It hurts me to see you acting this way.
It hurts me to see you not taking care of yourself.
It hurts me to see you thinking too much.
It hurts me.
Really.
This time it hurts.
It hurts badly.
You are capable of doing this.
Unexplainable.

我不忍心。
我不忍心把它表现出来。
我很怕。
我怕万一我把它表现出来。
你所做的一切。
会把我伤的更重。
我可以。
我可以把一切丢下。
完全不理。
可是，因为是你。
我办不到。

I care.
I care about you.
All I've been doing and I'll be doing.
All are for you.
But.
You took it wrongly.
I understand.
Really.
I understand why you'd think it that way.
But.
Because I care.
I'll try.
I'll try all my best.
I'll try all my best to make  a change.
It doesn't matter.

不管多久。
不管付出的代价多大。
我会坚持。
我会继续。
直到我成功。
因为。
我直到有一天。
我会成功。
放弃，不在我字典内。
总会有一天。。。

First of all, because of the requests of the public.
I decide to continue writing my footsteps in Taiwan.
Abandoned it for half a month already, since I got back from Taiwan.
Shall start writing again before my Short Term Memory Lost (STML) kicks in again.

I regretted what I said in the previous post about Taiwan's weather -- cooling.
When we were here in 清境, it's not cooling anymore. It was FREAKING COLD!!!
It's actually a highland.
The place we stayed actually a B&B + a vege and fruits stall (downstairs).
But, the interior of the room is a whole different story.